a dear friend happen to show me a piece of her writing, and the style, content, and wording completely blew me away. i felt i should post this giving her credit for her work. it is a masterpiece of agony, pain, trust, and true love.


I stare at the world around me
It passes always
And I stand alone as on an island of solitude
I close my eyes to the pain that envelops me
A comfort in the familiar embrace
A humorless laugh threatens my stoicism
Tears
And laughter
Never joy
I turn again to face the wall of silence
Through which I watch life happen
A few tears easily brushed away
But the road they traveled is as prominent as any scar
I turn to the sky for comfort
But stars dwell no more
Only the flashing lights of an aircraft
A manmade star
A mockery of what once was
The pounding in my ears, a meaningless assault
That becomes my world
Every cell every beat every breath
Pounds to the very cadence, the only thing that keeps me going
Because it reminds me of you
I push myself to the very limit if only to stay awake
I fear to close my eyes
I fear the darkness
I fear the abyss
That surely waits between me and everything else
I have felt it there
As it reaches up to surround me as it is once more
The only thing that holds me is
The golden rope tight around my heart
The burning binding crushing rope
A bond of love, a bond of faith and trust, a bond with a true best friend
That holds me to life
And when I so choose to stand on the edge and leap once more
I shall still have my lifeline
Always
I can only hope
To make the choice before it is too late
And my weight on the rope does not
Drag, pull, carry my tether down with me
Until we both are falling separated by the darkness
I could not bear for such a dreaded fate to come to pass
So I am left with but one option
To climb back up and stand on my own
Sever the rope in two
Always tied around my heart
Always holding me in place
Forever the wings I need
Maybe it shall remain on yours
But never will it pull you down.